Saturday, March 31, 2007
Dunno what I did to not allow comments on my last post...maybe the fact that I posted it was enough!
So, its Saturday again
Life is pretty good today
I have been drawing, well, working on some drawings I did yesterday at school anyway
Its amazing how drawing or creating something takes you out of yourself and your head for a while and allows some new and different energy to come in....most excellent and I hope some more people come to artyfarty class so they can learn this too and I hope that a certain goth we know will remember to pick up a paintbrush too.....
Its been a pretty good week. On average I feel better...this is good
Darlin' and I are going to Black Crows workshop tommorrow which should be good.....excellent
I am feeling positive which is more than I can say I have been for the past few, lots of, weeks now
I dont know where Ive been or why I was there but it seems to have lifted for now. Phew..
Sometimes I think I have to remember what the pain was like by tasting it a bit just so I can appreciate the good stuff....know what I mean?
I dont know where maryme has disappeared to either.....do you suppose she knows its not wednesday anymore??
There is not much going on today....
Just thought I would say Hi!
PS: this is one of mine that may never get finished because I stuffed it!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Whatshisname at the cafe will be impressed for sure!
I am a nutcase this week!
Life is bloody relentless and will not stop!
I want to get off.....
I seem to have done nothing but run around like the proverbial blue arsed fly, driving kids everywhere, dentist appointments, gym, picking sick ones up from school etceterbloodyra!
My very mature 16 yr old boy wishes to leave school!
Actually, he wants to leave to do his IT diploma at TAFE which is okay, its what he wants to do anyway
he won't go to school
He wants to sign out and thinks he will automatically be given a good paying job for 3 months while he waits for next semester to start at TAFE so he can save up lots and lots of money and buy his hearts desires..............I am just stoopid for suggesting that perhaps Big W or K Mart or wherever are not just waiting with a balloon bouquet for him to come along so they can give him some money.....
I do not want this child at home all day on this computer for the next 3 months..........
No, no not at all
15 yr old daughter is STILL waiting to hear from the elusive Henny Penny about an orientation session...is it bad form for mothers to ring up and abuse daughters prospective employers? I suspect so......grrrrrr
Good news is that my own errant father and brothers are donating some regular bucks for the up and coming world soccer tour that is 15 yr olds hearts desire and the reason she wants the bloody job in the first place! This is indeed a miracle and will make her ecstatic for sure!
Anyway, you know how I left school so I would have time to paint?
Hasn't happened yet!
Monday, March 26, 2007
it just means I'm up to the next bit doesn't it.
Just because I don't quite know what it is exactly doesn't mean anything except that it's not here yet...
Anyway, I shall write more tommorrow when my eyes can see and all that......
Friday, March 23, 2007
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
There was a method in my madness as I was sick of being asked to blowdry their hair/s when required and they could do it themselves.............
So, I bought a time saving device
Every morning for the past two weeks I have straightened two heads of hair
Now son has decided that he likes blow dried hair as wet is not cool and one must shower 12 times a day of course
He does say thank you though ....
This so novel that I keep drying his hair just to hear it............and because I have an excuse to touch him...rare occurence trust me.....(just quietly I think he enjoys that too, a good excuse for a head tickle without inflicting damage on fragile hormonal male ego)
I did try the straightener on my hair and that was an interesting look
darlin laughed at me!
Kayla thought it was cool
It was VERY long........
I am very impressed with elf's pressie, too cool, a t-shirt from the art gallery that says
"some art teachers have a lot to answer for"
which is quote by the guy who runs the packing room there
I cant wait to wear it to school
I am a cook chick!
...as jen would say
Monday, March 19, 2007
I am NOT FINISHED oh naggy ones
I am some works in progress
I forgot to go to school to draw today....oh dear
I have to write a list of what I am NOT....hmmmm
I am having fun but got no sleep last night. Mary Jen says its because of the eclipse and other such things and it is good to have a reason for sure.
Ummm, I have not much to say because brain is not working and will not form thought long enough for me to write it down
sounds like this
blah blah blah la de dah la de dah buzz oh what about zing doop poop etc etc
bit like what Ruby's mums sounds like i imagine although she does manage to be hilarious in spite of her infirmity....so far
soon she shall blog what I just wrote above, zoot
Mary Jac/Gothicprincessqueenofthedeadnightzombies has been very forthcoming on her recently formulated image ...she is too damn schmick and I want to wear lacy elbow warmers and dark eyeshadow but know I would look like an old lady corpse pretending to be goth so I could wear them.
Mary Jen is busy being super bloody woman
Maryme is growing up fast and Will is on the mend
Elf MacPerson has disappeared and will npt tell me what my present is
Life goes on regardless doesnt it
It is a good day
and of course
I send my love and thoughts to my mary friends who are having a hard time this week.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
I am putting it out to you, the friends of my heart, and to the universe that this day is the beginning of my new life.
I am moving on from fear.
I am moving on from those things which I am not.
First things first, the greatest weight of this now.....
I am not an art student!
I am an artist, and shall now begin to think of my self as one
I will not go to school and be taught to do that which I dont want to do.
I will go to the place of learning and continue to draw because this feels good
I will not paint there
I cannot paint there as the past 2 months of trying have shown me. Various continuous happenings have made me attend only 3 painting classes so far this year. Last night I almost decided that I should leave and do "my thing"....
This morning I got up and thought "I will give it another go"....
so, I left late so as to get to the art shop and purchase a canvas to paint on and did so.
I get in the car outside of this shop to drive to TAFE and my phone rings...my son informs me that he is home with his sister because someone has broken into the school and splashed ACID everywhere so of course everyone was sent home.....so far so good.....okay say I and drive into school where there is not one single car park available so I drive out and the phone rings and it is shelli burbling about crap and in my haste to get of phone as I am actually on road driving car I knock new nose jewellery out of face almost and am driving around the corner holding it in, pulling over again to painfully push it back in.....there are no parking spaces nearby....a bus nearly takes me out....
These sort of things have been happening every week on these days...........grrrrrrrr
the point is I decided to come home and never go back to that class again.
I will paint here, in my space, the paintings that call me to paint them.
I will take steps to do things that will enable me to find me
I will not do things because somebody somewhere decided I should without consulting me first.
I will not let society dictate what I need to do
Why do I need a piece of paper to do what I do?
I didnt start school to get paper
I started to learn me and now it is blocking me so...
time to go
Have a great day and be true to you
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Did you know that great pain makes your eyes water and gives you a headache?
Well, it does....
I should know
I have experienced worse pain but only when a baby came out at the end of it
I have a new hole in my face
My mother thinks that boogies will drip out of it and run down my face, her words not mine......
This is a picture taken of me during this procedure
As you can see it hurt a LOT
and this is picture of me now with my new facial mutilation
I dyed my hair to go with the new look
I am very good looking aren't I
A lesser individual would have had issues with this but I am very great
today because it is my birthday.
the advantage of this new look is that you can no longer see the wrinkles
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
I nursed the new Ruby baby
and the very handsome Archie Bear Boy
and the babies were very beautiful
and Ruby baby was even better than the photos
and she has red hair
and perfect feet
and a pout
I like babies
they dont talk
Happy Birthday to me in advance
because there wont be time tommorrow
Sunday, March 11, 2007
I am going to woolies to walk like a goddess....
they may bring me home in a police car mind you......
alas muggle, he will not be shared.........
next life maybe
Meanwhile, I must live this one
a day at a time......
and I shall be whatever the day brings
by the way
I am painting!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Am feeling a bit better and brighter now. Still lacking energy.....oh well.
I have actually been to school this week and done some stuff, all of it unfinished as yet but will show you anyway, just to prove I went.
I have turned my lounge room into my studio, so to speak, and now it will be a useful place instead of a waste of space that is there because everyone has one.
Except maybe Cyndi......
Have looked at photos of Ruby's little scrunched up face 150 times, can't wait to meet that little chick for sure, she will definately be looking forward to that.....
Can now talk about giving birth to upduffnomore in a womanly wise fashion because she has DONE IT.
Have gotten over my snit about lack of money and decided that I will have lots and lots very soon.......doesn't matter how....actually I just so happen to know this really great bank robber.....
Have stained 5 drum rims (that darlin' has prepared earlier) and varnished them and we will put skins on them tommorrow in preperation for painting and things ......to be done in spare time of course...as well as sewing many bloody drum bags...I hate making drum bags, I really do, grrrr, snooff, stuff
If mary J is reading this could she please tell me if she wants her drum soon because I forgot to ask and so I need to know.......
I am going to stare at my drawings and think about finishing them whilst wondering why my legs ache when I haven't done anything much.....
Oh yes, I had a horrible dream last night where all of my teeth fell to bits and it was like I had shards of glass in my mouth and went to the dentist and there were mad people roaming the corridors and the dentist went to pull the teeth out and my whole jaw started to come out and I knew that when it did my throat would close up and I wouldn't be able to breathe and then I woke up.......groaning.
Happy full moon pagans.......
Friday, March 02, 2007
Thursday, March 01, 2007
We had an abundance night at the cottage last night, all very well and good, yes let us attract money and believe that we have it and spend it like we've got it and all that good stuff. Yes, lets do that.....
If I might ask how does one let go of fear around money when all of your life has been a constant bloody struggle with the said groovy green stuff and you actually dont have any to spend like youv'e got it and you are wondering which child you can borrow money off so that you can feed all of the other children and you are going to school that costs lots of money and the electricity and phone want paying 2 weeks ago and the car wants fuel and so do the kids and the dogs arse is a scabby wad of bucks and there is no money in the bank, and never has been money in the bank and if there was money in the bank it would have been spent by now paying the above......
how does one lose fear of lack of money??
Stuffed if I know