pooooooo

What bloody idiot made me decide to paint the girls bedrooms this week

starting today

cannot move now

got purple feet

and hair

and fingers

stiff muscles

swollen feet (underneath)

paint spray up my nose

in my ears

you get the picture

stoopid woman

grrrr

how

How did I get to be playing EIGHTEEN simultaneous games of scrabble??

and how...if I am playing so many, can I still be waiting for people to have their turns??

Darlin thinks I have disappeared into the computer

Lucky I really like scrabble

Somethings got to make me think

Hmmmm

CSV coming home for a flying visit tomorrow

This means I get to drive out to Kurri twice and back in a day

She's lucky I am a cool mom

I am exhausted....

as usual

have been hookering and ho-ing all week every day every hour and minute and second and stuff

vitamins and fruit tingles are not doing it for me

just means I pee fluorescently and froth at the mouth a lot

I think I will be in bed at an ungodly early hour tonight

like now seems fair to me

ah poo

bloody

am Hookering at backpassage

very important inteference running whilst accountants audit things that are very important also

am worth at least an envelope this week

have just eaten many quarters of little sandwiches with stuff on

too many too many

and three packets of fruit tingles because they are yummy and i am addicted

Kristy is stressing me at scrabble...she's good and blocks everything...grrrr

maryme says she is a champ but i am flogging her breasts orf

Cyndi is lovely and just gives me triple words on plates...lovely I tell you

Life is soooo busy

time is whipping by each day

I'm sure I used to be able to fit much more into a day than I can now

its weird

anyone else noticed this??

My house is clean

Thats weird too

Back to hooking........

gosh snoff groan

I am almost feeling human sometimesinbetween feeling wrung out!!

This is much goodest yes

Am halfway through two paintings and will certainly be finishing them sunday and monday.....

I am a scrabble champion except for one game that jen somehow managed to beat me on

My house is half clean in the visible bits due to workshop tomorrow when 5 ladies are coming to make drums with us.....

Lucky hey....now I can pay the $700 farking electricity bill and live to cook another crappy meal and have hot water and stuff

phew

Darlin' has James Rayne blaring in the lounge room so he's in a good mood

Maryme is a toothless hag apparently.....

I have fulfilled my backpassagly duties for the week

Ummmmm...

not much else I don't think

Life is moving along

as it does

when you let it

or not

me xxxx

sometimes....

Sometimes in life we do things we instantly regret

but there is no going back and undoing it

Sometimes we do something so shocking that others cannot pretend it wasn't

Sometimes the reason we do these things is that we need desperately to change and by doing this shocking thing we are unintentionally (or so we think at the time) creating the exact thing that will make us HAVE to look at ourselves with honesty and choose to do WHATEVER it takes to climb up from there

Sometimes we use this thing as an excuse to alienate ourselves from anything that will do us any good and we will use shame, anger, illness or whatever we can think of in our desperate scramble to cover up the reality that is ours

And the choice is all ours at that point

Sometimes we don't even see it through our self imposed deceptions

Sometimes we put ourselves at rock bottom to force us to have to climb up out of the pit and live
or stay there and die

Sometimes, if we face the fear head on and walk through it and all over it, we surprise ourselves

And the choice is still ours

And it always was

bunch of losers

Hah!

I will win

I must

I am a scrabble fanatic

as poor maryjen knows

I am stalking her I think

but she will not play her turn quick enough

so now we have 4 games going

she is winning one

ha ha ha

GO PLAY YOUR TURN

now....

grumble snoff

finito

Well, its all done



the pics are off the walls



the pots are packed up



the gallery is empty



phew



I sold 5 paintings out of 11 and got 2 commissions



Darlin' sold 5 pieces too



Excellent for sure



Definately an experience!!



We will do it again....



suckers for punishment yes!



I am feeling better



still tired but better



I went to bed at 7.30 last night for the 3rd time this week!!



My kids think I'm nuts



Apparently I'm supposed to be



I'm an artist!



woo hoo



Here are some pics for those who couldn't make it...

well, blogger wont let me so I'll post em later

a minute in the day

Have been up and down like a yoyo this week

Its not been wonderful

Am very tired and have zilch energy and want to sleep a lot

Ha ha ha

Karen Bishops energy alerts are the story of my life right now

waiting waiting waiting

oh well

I am painting Gloria's painting finally...its very schmick according to darlin' and I hope to have it finished by the end of the weekend

The exhibition comes down on Sunday...this is good...darlin' and I are over it

We have decided that we havent had much fun lately and need to remedy this pronto

My kids are a worry

I do find myself feeling very guilty at times lately about not being a good parent due to past discrepencies and not knowing how to fix this because I just bloody cant.....forgivness of self I know...they will and have survived I know but I want them to be more than survivors you know....surviving is such farking struggle

I dont know why this font is here but I will go with it

I am also painting Toni's painting ......shhhhh, don't tell her

I am quite pleased with the results of the exhibition even though I will never put myself through such stress again....hah, so she says right now

I don't know, I would like to speak more eloquently and bare my soul a bit but I just don't have the oomph to even think right now

I will get to it

I miss blogging for real

I miss me

Better go find me then....

see ya

tellin' you straight

With the exception of a very few...you guys are even slackerarser bloggers than me!

poo

bloody

Well....

what to say

I am so glad that William True decided to come to me on Wednesday night and have a pat and a stare into my eyes. I will miss his funny little face and his sticky out lip. Bugger and damn cars that don't see and then don't stop.....

This is one of the paintings that didn't go into the exhibition.....it is about ascension.....you will see it or not

I do believe that a lot of the 'death' that is going on now is just that some came for a reason and that reason is complete and so they go again....pre-chosen and welcome, for them.

Not that that helps those of us left behind much

Bugger

but what to say?

I am being forced to blog

oh dear

I only have a minute

I am getting ready to go sit in the gallery for 6 straight hours and go mad

oh dear

bugger darlin's who must tafe

bugger exhibitions that must have open doors

bugger bugger bugger

I want to sleep

and stare at walls

my stomach hurts

if you aren't doing anything today drop in and have coffee amongst the artwork with me

go on

you know you wanna!

what????

too posh to blog???

pah!!

Well, now you know why I was shitting myself

pooping my proverbial panties....except I am too cool to wear them now apparently

What a night

I am so wilted and stuffed

I certainly wasn't expecting THAT many people

and I sold work!

and got a commission!

I am impressed!

Thank you to all Marys who came and rallied in support!

It made it so much better having friendly faces who love me to see whilst I was flying around like a demented twit saying thankyou and kissing people...(note to self: must master air kiss)

They drank all the grog!

and ate all the beautiful cheese ball and gaucamole

and didnt eat the fruit....stooopids!

I didn't get any!

I had chocolate in bed for dinner and then fell asleep and snored a lot

Next time...more cheese, less fruit

Darlin' sold another piece today...most excellent!

I feel blessed!

Lots of good feedback from people who's feedback I care about..

A handsome man with a really BIG camera and a sexy accent taking photos and looking very professional.....yes you Mr Hoe

I didnt realise I knew so many lovely special people

Did I say I was blessed??

I am

Was it worth it???

Yes

Especially now that I will never have to do my first exhibition again!

Phew.....

snore