update

Hospital appointments are always a yuk crash back to reality

6 - 12 months before things get awful they say

some fluid around the site of surgery

suspicious things in the lung that they arent even worrying about as the other will get her first

poor little mother

she doesnt want to die

not that soon anyway

I wonder if she will ever get to the foot stomping not having this crap stage?

I hope this B17 does something good for her

I really do

but I know its up to her to decide to live and fear is all crippling and hope is just a word sometimes

And faith, to some, is just a concept

I am not a spiritual advisor

just a kid am I

But

I am here

for her

whatever will be

I can live with that

xxx