poo

Yep poo again

Am in the orifice and the sun is shining and its not shining on me

I am going to close for lunch today and go sit in the park or something like that

Too much orifice is detrimental to my health

I am no longer a ferocious coffee drinker did I tell you??

2 half strengths in the morning then its tea for me, herbal and real tea

I am too good

Since I told the anxiety I will no longer tolerate being debilitated by it it has been ok

There have been moments of course, and the first few days were a bit hairy but all in all I feel okay

and when I dont I am no longer fearful of a valium addiction, thats what its there for after all

I have noticed that it is worse when I have to drive anywhere further than up the road but am working on that

I will NOT be housebound because of a chemical imbalance that I created

I am UN creating it !!!

Once in a lifetime is more than enough times for fear to do me in

I am MUCH stronger than that

I just need to remind myself regularily

Hrmph

Appointment with child psychology people tomorrow arvo

Colonoscopy on Thursday

Wednesday is for pooing in preperation for Thursday

how nice

I am so looking forward to it and am so pleased they will drug me stupid in order not to remember it too

I am getting a puppy did you know

so exciting for me and the girls

but not for darlin

no

oh dear

did you know that since Josh went I have much more money??

It has taken me 2 weeks to notice that Coles is no longer eating my whole bank account each week...

Interesting

xxx