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Well, here I am again

In the bleeding orifice

with the stinkhead puppyson who woke me up 7 times last night whining...had his needles yesterday so that might be his excuse but still.....

I am perplexed as to whats going on in my life right now

Nothing is resolved

Nothing is decided

Nothing is changed

Well, not that I am aware of I think??

Or I may be left

or not

I may have left

or did I??

Hmmmm

I just have no idea

A bit cryptic I know but thats how it is

Feeling a bit flat today but no sleep will do that to me

Mother has been feeling unwell the past couple of days

I hope its just reaction to anasthetic or something boring

I have a nasty feeling that she might start getting sick

And I am still here in this box and nothing has been resolved here either

I have to reapply for the Carers payment. Frikken centrelink think it is ok for me to be working 40 hours a week (for nothing) taking care of this business but because I dont have to actually hand feed my parent or wipe her bum I dont qualify for a lousy $50 a week allowance....oh no....at least they havent made me look for my required 15 hours a week work yet...and doing her shopping and taking her to appointments and doing the heavy housework DONT COUNT EITHER....its bum wiping or nothing....

HAHAHAHAHAHA

so frikken funny that

When does terminal illness become serious??

About 5 minutes before you kick it apparently

That little form needs to be revised for certain

Anyway

I shall apply again because they want me to so they can keep me waiting for another 8 or 9 months

joy

By the way, its not about the money, its the whole frikking point of it