Stuff ....an ongoing saga

Whats been going on?

well, nothing much

and everything too

been a wild yoyo ride of a week for me, emotionally......

There is something just over the horizon

Coming fast, like a train on a silent track and the lights are blinding

I have my head turned away, but I am prepared

and listening for the crash

and I sometimes wonder who, after I pick up the bits of everyone laying around me

will pick up the pieces of me

but then I also know

that wont be necessary

life

can be relentless

news?

the guy who made an offer on the business 6 months ago is ringing again

the rumours are flying around about the state of mums health

I say nothing

let them panic

and bring their money to the table

bugger them

assholes

and

mum, she is feeling a bit better this week, thanks to someone elses blood

we see the new doctor on Monday without the benefit of a CT scan, because hospitals are run by humans and sometimes this means incompetance

Shelli, my brave warrior child, is fighting the good fight and making me very proud to be her mother, she forges on through the crap and I find myself hoping that maybe, just maybe, I showed her how, in some small way. Showed her that to be yourself is a gift not to be taken lightly by the bastards of this world and that hope is precious and not useless. Thats what I hope for......with her, for her and stuff the opinions of those who do not know how very hard that can be.

For me, I just pray for the strength to be the best I can, and for it to be enough.

Every damn day.....

and every damn day I find a reason, to stand tall and keep on keeping on

and I know that even if I can't see the way, the way see's me

How cool is that!

Have a good one people