Hmmm.........it isn't raining still :)
I thought I was stuck here with no internet this morning
I'm a bit surprised by how much that freaked me out!
I know I have become very reliant on this computer this past year or so, to keep me in touch with my friends, to keep me amused too I guess, in this not so amusing situation that I am living, to communicate with the human race.
Looking back on this past 2 years ( 2 f#@king YEARS!) I have actually been through rather a lot haven't I.......really
Just about everything on the major life stresses list I do believe, with the exception of having a deadly disease myself......(which I don't and won't you hear me universe!)
I have moved me and my house full of teenagers and dealt with the crap that accompanied that, I have been dealing with a dying parent, I have broken off a long term relationship, I have dealt with a child who was harming herself, I have sent a son overseas for a year, I have run a business I know nothing about after a life of never really having worked at all, I have left a life I was familiar with if nothing else and every single thing has changed.......
EVERY SINGLE THING!!!
I am a little lost right now but you know what....I will certainly not stay that way for long
I am a little lonely right now but I wont stay that way for long either!
I'm a little wired too........
A bit confused by some signals I may or may not have gotten crossed somewhere along the line......
Whatever, it will get sorted without any help or any more stress from me, that is certain.
I think I'm okay......
In fact, I know I am....
I just need to remember this at midnight when it's dark and lonely and stuff in my room......
In my new bed
Which comes in 2 days :)
I bought myself an ipod and a dock today.......that should keep me amused for 5 minutes
I can listen to great music all by myself in my brand new bed....snort!
hee heeeeeee
7 comments:
all of the above are the reasons i love, trust and hero worship you so much.
in two years,you have grown so much as a woman, daughter, mother and friend.
i know you feel lonely- maybe that is the lesson of now- you were lonely before too, when you were in a relationship, remember ?
Yes, you've been through a lot but no INTERNET . . yikes . . that would send me to the silly farm lol!!!!!
WoW girl! BE proud!!! That's amazing, makes a girl think that maybe she can ~Leap~ too! (i think!) Lol!
Yes to getting through those midnights. And yes to freaking out when the Net is down. I was telling Peggy just today that we really should have two computers in case one of them fails.
A wish for you...you'll be in that new 'virgin' bed...with ipod playin...maybe some nice scented candles burning...snugglin down with a sigh and thinking...dam this is fine!
You are renewed.
Perhaps a celebration is in order? Burn off some of that stress and enjoy all you've accomplished.
Oh yeah right. Stress; life.
xoxox
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