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Im feeling the need to elaborate on that last post. Seeings as it could be taken many ways.

I have had a funny few days, weeks, months...whatever.

I have noticed that, without the input of myself in a lot of situations that if I am not actively 'stirring the pot' of a relationship and encouraging it, then it ceases to exist.

I know that I can and do and have many times read more into something than is warranted and have a tendency to live in my head at the moment and perhaps place more importance on things than others do, but that is MY way and I am one of those people who have learned that all the words in the world dont get you jack shit without some action behind them.

That applies to many things, not just people and relationships.

I can say Im going to give up smoking and talk about it and yet if I dont actually stop putting lit cigarette to mouth nothing is achieved, proven or benefited from all the pretty words, is there.

I can tell you I love you and want you and need you and you can tell me too but if neither of us is looking each other in the eye then it doesnt mean anything does it.

I was gunna gets me nowhere

I want gets me nowhere

I wish gets me nothing

Sitting on my arse takes me nowhere

Hindsight is irrelevent really

And procrastination is guilt inducing

So, I do believe that actions speak louder than words and that at times inaction has its own little voice that is saying something rather rude to me.

I am not referring to anything or person in particular here, except for maybe my family, just wondering where all my 'help' has gone and realising that 'I will help you' are words and that the action is being carried out by only myself at this point in time.

Having said that, I havent actually asked for any so what does that make me?

Must be the matyr in me...

grrr