Tuesday, June 01, 2010

juz thinkin' about life and shit.....


I guess when I was sitting in a too quiet office all day I had plenty of time to write and to think and to play around in my head. In hindsight, while that was nice in some ways, in lots of other ways it really wasn't good for me at all......

Balance

Life seems to be all about achieving some sort of balance in so many different areas.....

I feel like I am coming out of the fog I have been in for the....well, since just before mum died really I guess. Like the world, MY world, is getting real for me again and like I am participating instead of just observing......sort of

I find myself wondering what all the fuss is about. Life just seems to be so fucking intense sometimes but in general, when you take away petty dramas, it really isn't all that hard. It's just about doing....one foot in front of the other, sometimes a little dance, plod along steadily.....then a little dance again......sigh......I begin to see that most dramas are created by bored people.

I see that so many of us create crap to deflect eyes away from ourselves, so scared that someone might actually see who we really are, so scared that that won't be good enough, big/small/rich/smart/thin...whatever enough.

That is sad.

All that potential going to waste through a perception based on fear.

Thing about fear is you just have to move through it.....



8 comments:

christopher said...

Baiting The Bear

Let's see. If I poke
you right here, or how about
right there, or whisper
some shit about him,
or let some noxious odor
loose so carefully
you can't tell it's me,
then can I get you to crack
open one more time?

Lisa said...

yep....and take what help is offered........being proactive in your healing process is empowering

Lisa xx

Kristy-Lee said...

"I begin to see that most dramas are created by bored people".

YES!!!!!!!!

Cyndy said...

People thrive on drama. That's why soapies are so important. Whole socio-economic groups revel in the drama of thier lives as they've got little else to worry about... they don't really have toworry about where their next meal is coming from, or when it will be.....

By the by, Bluest One: do you have a job? Have I missed something whilst i've been wrapped up in my own wee world?


xoxoxoxoxoxo

Michelle said...

Nope..no job Cyndy. Am starting to think one is a good idea though. Too much time being spent doing nobloodything. xxx

Snowbrush said...

"Thing about fear is you just have to move through it....."

For sure, but it's awfully hard to do sometimes.

Michelle said...

I know Snow...x

Kathryn Magendie said...

oh dear...oh..michelle - I have not been by here in forever- I didn't know about your mom - I am so sorry -- *HUG*