I am putting it out to you, the friends of my heart, and to the universe that this day is the beginning of my new life.
I am moving on from fear.
I am moving on from those things which I am not.
First things first, the greatest weight of this now.....
I am not an art student!
I am an artist, and shall now begin to think of my self as one
I will not go to school and be taught to do that which I dont want to do.
I will go to the place of learning and continue to draw because this feels good
I will not paint there
I cannot paint there as the past 2 months of trying have shown me. Various continuous happenings have made me attend only 3 painting classes so far this year. Last night I almost decided that I should leave and do "my thing"....
This morning I got up and thought "I will give it another go"....
so, I left late so as to get to the art shop and purchase a canvas to paint on and did so.
I get in the car outside of this shop to drive to TAFE and my phone rings...my son informs me that he is home with his sister because someone has broken into the school and splashed ACID everywhere so of course everyone was sent home.....so far so good.....okay say I and drive into school where there is not one single car park available so I drive out and the phone rings and it is shelli burbling about crap and in my haste to get of phone as I am actually on road driving car I knock new nose jewellery out of face almost and am driving around the corner holding it in, pulling over again to painfully push it back in.....there are no parking spaces nearby....a bus nearly takes me out....
These sort of things have been happening every week on these days...........grrrrrrrr
the point is I decided to come home and never go back to that class again.
I will paint here, in my space, the paintings that call me to paint them.
I will take steps to do things that will enable me to find me
I will not do things because somebody somewhere decided I should without consulting me first.
I will not let society dictate what I need to do
Why do I need a piece of paper to do what I do?
I didnt start school to get paper
I started to learn me and now it is blocking me so...
time to go
Have a great day and be true to you