I know, I know, I am a slackarse blogger lately.
Cant be helped, haven't had much to say or if I have then I haven't had the bloody energy to say it.
Plurgh snoff etc
Anyway, life goes on as usual.
I have painted a drum today and taken a child for a haircut and she looks suitably stunning of course.
Other child got the job at Henny Penny so a trip to open a bank account and other such trivial crap was neccessary also.
I hate shopping centres, they wear me out...whinge snoff moan and etc
Ruby Red Baby is sooooo beautiful I almost want one....sanity does prevail however.
Tantra was very interesting last night and I think I would like to know some more.
I am feeling as though the residues or perhaps the 'core' issues of me are coming up to be dealt with at this time. My fears, which are nowhere near as huge and scary anymore, are all slapping me in the face lately....all the good old stuff, lack of self worth, fear of being 'seen', fear of success/failure, not good enough type stuff is trying to rear its ugly head. That and apathy, an old not so friend of mine I suppose.
I do know better however and am just feeling it and trying not to let it get in my way as I move through it slowly, slowly and remember that I am ok.
And worth it......
I do wish it would be over soon though
Good things are:
That my maryme is well on the path to her own true self, this makes me happy
My darlin is a good man and I like him a lot usually, of course I love him too but liking is more important sometimes you know...
Kristy duff has had a baby and both of them are all well and good and that is quite wonderful
My drawing has improved all of a sudden, I like it when one leaps ahead in stuff...
My girls are beautiful even if they have bad tempers, foul mouths and catholic tendancies and my son will be handsome when he grows into his bones and stops hiding behind all that crazy hair.....or even brushes it sometimes
My dog no longer has a scabby arse but does have a bald one
I dont know about painting because I have been too scared to do any.....I will get there soon
Thats me for today
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