Thursday, March 08, 2007

ramble, ramble, ramble


I know, I know, I am a slackarse blogger lately.


Cant be helped, haven't had much to say or if I have then I haven't had the bloody energy to say it.


Plurgh snoff etc


Anyway, life goes on as usual.


I have painted a drum today and taken a child for a haircut and she looks suitably stunning of course.


Other child got the job at Henny Penny so a trip to open a bank account and other such trivial crap was neccessary also.


I hate shopping centres, they wear me out...whinge snoff moan and etc


Ruby Red Baby is sooooo beautiful I almost want one....sanity does prevail however.


Tantra was very interesting last night and I think I would like to know some more.


I am feeling as though the residues or perhaps the 'core' issues of me are coming up to be dealt with at this time. My fears, which are nowhere near as huge and scary anymore, are all slapping me in the face lately....all the good old stuff, lack of self worth, fear of being 'seen', fear of success/failure, not good enough type stuff is trying to rear its ugly head. That and apathy, an old not so friend of mine I suppose.


Hmmmm


I do know better however and am just feeling it and trying not to let it get in my way as I move through it slowly, slowly and remember that I am ok.


And worth it......


I do wish it would be over soon though


plurgh again


Good things are:


That my maryme is well on the path to her own true self, this makes me happy


My darlin is a good man and I like him a lot usually, of course I love him too but liking is more important sometimes you know...


Kristy duff has had a baby and both of them are all well and good and that is quite wonderful


My drawing has improved all of a sudden, I like it when one leaps ahead in stuff...


My girls are beautiful even if they have bad tempers, foul mouths and catholic tendancies and my son will be handsome when he grows into his bones and stops hiding behind all that crazy hair.....or even brushes it sometimes


My dog no longer has a scabby arse but does have a bald one


I dont know about painting because I have been too scared to do any.....I will get there soon


Thats me for today


ramble ramble ramble










7 comments:

Cyndy said...

I understand apathy...I'm an Apathy Queen.... not something to be too proud of, but it's so hard to get around sometimes. Some people have said that they envy my non-stressed and easy approach to things.. I am such a liar!!!! I'm just too lazy, and worse, too apathetic to be bothered... sigh...
It must be nice to have all your stunners living at home. Good on Henny Penny Girl!
And you are right... liking is more important. Love can be so destructive at times... Like is more honest, I think... <3

Anchell said...

Yes...although I tend to think that apathy, for me anyway, is yet another fear based bloody avoidance tool....if I cant be bothered enough then I dont have to do it etc plurgh snoff poo....and if I was really meaning to be apathetic then I wouldnt feel so bloody guilty about the things Im not doing .....

Kathleen said...

Redgum comment on one of my records that apathy is a "great Australian sport" ... I guess we all have the tendancy to be so laid back as to not give a &^%$ about anything!

It may be part of the ebb and flow process as well : )

Lisa said...

well about time you got your slackarse blogging self back on here-yes, like is very important as are stunning children although catholic tendancies does make one wonder where you went wrong..........yes, yes, bald arse is better than scabby one & much bettter than limping poodle for sure...excellent about jump in drawing skills and henny penny employment......come to lunch & look at the twitch..........

Jewell said...

I think that apathy gives us all an out when we wish to do something but fear to do it...i know that it's the case with me....
i often tell my hubby that i love him just don't like him very much when he says or does something i don't like

Jacqui said...

Apathy is my middle name, ankle! Right there with you on that stuff. We are all still wading through the mud with boots on, hey... Hope it ends soon.
Mary Goth xXx

Cyndy said...

Hey, "Chell... How do you think I could get that gorgeous and feathered man to put his bow and arrows into my corner???? I don't mind if he brings his wolf along......mmmmmmmmm....