Ahhh life is a funny....
I have decided to do a step four on relationships, after having some words (and making some amends) with my old sponser, who used to be my best friend, who is now my tentative friend again and who has enlightened me with a few valuable insights into my ex partner, the bullshit he span for me and the effect he had on me and my life, because, of course, I allowed him to.
The anger I keep experiencing around him is real and valid and must be put to rest somehow because I am OVER it!
Today he rang me to ask for permission to come to my mum's funeral?????
.......ummmm, she's not actually dead yet dickhead!
So, not to lay the whole steaming heap of blame crap onto him, because that wouldn't be real or fair, I am going to do some writing and get rid of the lot of them......yay....snort! Oh if it were just that easy how happy would I be! It ain't a very long list but oh there are some doozies to be dealt with. The father of my kids is going to be interesting now isn't he........
Hmmmm, do you think this is appropriate for me to be doing just now?
It must be or why else would it keep slapping me in the face?
Please feel free to tell me to pull my head out of my ar...bum if you think I need to......really, I would so rather not have to look at this stuff ever again in my life.
Anyway, onto other stuff.....like I have told my boss I'm leaving as of this week.
I said I will work on some days if they REALLY need me to, otherwise I'm just doing my mum.
Speaking of whom, she is not doing so well. She is just sick.
All over damn sick.
It's coming people.
It's coming relentlessly and I can't do a damn thing about it now can I.
I really really really hate powerless.....