I'd love to enthrall you with a witty tale of what's going on in my life right now
Because in my head it's all very exciting
In my physical existance however, I am bored shitless this week
Stuck in the middle of this and that, that'd be where I am
For someone to come along and tell me what to do here in the orifice and maybe pay me some money or something
For someone to come along and hold my damned hand here
For me to get a move on and something or other
You see my dilemma?
Never mind that I am going out of my head here....
no no, never mind that
In real life? Got a call from little brother last night, mum was in a great deal of pain .....had to go drug her to the gills so she got some relief and sit and yak for a while about all the things that need sorting......she is 'at' sorting now. She knows, as I know......nothing gets said in words really, but it's there none the less......
Spring seems to be sprung a little early here
Having some lovely weather considering I should be freezing my bum off
Am a bit fitter than I was a couple of weeks ago, not too much, but certainly a bit
Haven't had a ciggie for 9 days now.....not even a puff
Am counting down the next two weeks, holding my breath, remembering to breathe, holding my breath..........sigh
Energetically I am walking a fine line, I am not here in 'this' world, not very often just lately. It's a little disconcerting and that's okay, I figure it will get easier with practise.....I am growing. I feel very very 'stretchy' just lately. Someone will know what I mean here...or not. Matters not. I am anyway.
I suppose I'd better go pretend to do something....I don't know why actually, no one is looking are they? Maybe I will read my book then, or I suppose I could do filing or something. I just have no enthusiasm for it, any of it......well, maybe the book. Maybe I will shut the damn door and go walk in the park for a little while........recharge, say hi to a tree......
yeah, think I'll do that......