Thursday, August 20, 2009

ho hum and I'm excited....a slightly schizo post

I'd love to enthrall you with a witty tale of what's going on in my life right now

Because in my head it's all very exciting

In my physical existance however, I am bored shitless this week

Stuck in the middle of this and that, that'd be where I am

waiting

waiting

waiting

For someone to come along and tell me what to do here in the orifice and maybe pay me some money or something

For someone to come along and hold my damned hand here

For me to get a move on and something or other

You see my dilemma?

Never mind that I am going out of my head here....

no no, never mind that

:0)

In real life? Got a call from little brother last night, mum was in a great deal of pain .....had to go drug her to the gills so she got some relief and sit and yak for a while about all the things that need sorting......she is 'at' sorting now. She knows, as I know......nothing gets said in words really, but it's there none the less......

Spring seems to be sprung a little early here

Having some lovely weather considering I should be freezing my bum off

Am a bit fitter than I was a couple of weeks ago, not too much, but certainly a bit

Haven't had a ciggie for 9 days now.....not even a puff

Am counting down the next two weeks, holding my breath, remembering to breathe, holding my breath..........sigh

Energetically I am walking a fine line, I am not here in 'this' world, not very often just lately. It's a little disconcerting and that's okay, I figure it will get easier with practise.....I am growing. I feel very very 'stretchy' just lately. Someone will know what I mean here...or not. Matters not. I am anyway.

I suppose I'd better go pretend to do something....I don't know why actually, no one is looking are they? Maybe I will read my book then, or I suppose I could do filing or something. I just have no enthusiasm for it, any of it......well, maybe the book. Maybe I will shut the damn door and go walk in the park for a little while........recharge, say hi to a tree......

yeah, think I'll do that......

13 comments:

Linda S. Socha said...

Love the hi to a tree....Love your wit ... and courage....yes courage
Linda

Strawberry Girl said...

Dance like no ones watching... ;D

Renata Daniel said...

Fart like no ones listening.......w.w.

Michelle said...

RENATA!!!!!!!!

Go fart on your own blog!!!

Sarah Lulu said...

I hope you did ....hug a tree.

You are in the space between one door closing and another opening.

Breathe ....trust THE plan ....

Just do the next right thing ....

and yes I do get it ....ohhh yes.

Chrisy said...

Poowhee! It's rough in here!
ps Doesn't matter if you're not here in this world...who knows...maybe where you are is the real one...sometimes I hope so...

Lisa said...

smiling to myself here.........

Butler and Bagman said...

By the way, congratulations on the not smoking thing. Good luck on the money thing...you will need it. It is very expensive to stop smoking because you will have to feed yourself for the additional ten or so years that you will live.

Liz said...

Wow, Michele...I take a break from blogging and am finally coming back and here you are with your blog looking so different (and beautiful) and all sorts of lovely poems to read... And so much happening in your heart.

I like the way you say that you feel "stretchy" just now...Maybe I am not sure exactly what you mean...but I think I feel a bit stretchy inside too :)

Hope you went to say hi to a tree... Nothing better sometimes than being a tree hugger -- maybe they don't hug back so well...but they are very steady and supportive :)

love to you
Liz

christopher said...

Thanks for keeping us informed. Nothing much real ever happens in my life any more, well, my cat died. But not much else. I am living thru you dearie.

Heh.

I'm looking out your eyes...

Marie S said...

Michelle you won the Renee Bracelet!
I feel stretchy too, I hope this helps you a little!!
Congratulations.

Renee said...

Oh Michelle, it isn't easy being green said Kermit the frog.

Love Renee xoxo

Daria said...

Congrats on 9 days! You rock!