Saturday, August 01, 2009
Nothing amazing .......
I got a day off, that makes two in a row including tomorrow
I am cleaning several weeks worth of crap up.....yes, literally too, bloody animals
I am tired and exhausted and weary and over all things mum
But I will go on doing this because I can and she can't
and that's just the way it is right now
You know, I have some dreams here, and some of them are coming pretty close to being here
and some of them are impossible
but I have them anyway because you never know what will happen tomorrow do you?
Life can change irrevocably in an instant....
Seems to me that the more you learn to cope with change, the better, for everyone
My life has been a nightmare this week people, for one reason or another, as it seems to have been for some of my friends as well.
This coming week is going to be revelatory for me and mine, this week we find out the go with this cancer, we sell a business, we get to know what's what. It's all happening this week.
My son comes home from Germany at the end of this month, yes, it has been a YEAR since he left and things are only just changing now.....It's been a very long, very full of crap, very intense year. It's not over yet but you know what.....I don't care, this bit in particular is nearly done and whatever the results of this week, life will be different.
All I can say is thank god it's August because July sucked and that September is coming and with it, one of my things I look forward to.......a lot
More change for me.........
You know, when you feel like everything has closed in and there is no way out, there really always is, you just have to open your eyes and your heart and let it be...you just never know do you, what's behind that next door you open.....
Me, I intend to find out and it matters not if I am stuck here for now. It matters not if I don't see the end result, can't plan the next 5 minutes...all that stuff, because it will happen anyway, if I let it.
I believe that
Yes, I do....