Friday, June 19, 2009
Stuff ....an ongoing saga
Whats been going on?
well, nothing much
and everything too
been a wild yoyo ride of a week for me, emotionally......
There is something just over the horizon
Coming fast, like a train on a silent track and the lights are blinding
I have my head turned away, but I am prepared
and listening for the crash
and I sometimes wonder who, after I pick up the bits of everyone laying around me
will pick up the pieces of me
but then I also know
that wont be necessary
can be relentless
the guy who made an offer on the business 6 months ago is ringing again
the rumours are flying around about the state of mums health
I say nothing
let them panic
and bring their money to the table
mum, she is feeling a bit better this week, thanks to someone elses blood
we see the new doctor on Monday without the benefit of a CT scan, because hospitals are run by humans and sometimes this means incompetance
Shelli, my brave warrior child, is fighting the good fight and making me very proud to be her mother, she forges on through the crap and I find myself hoping that maybe, just maybe, I showed her how, in some small way. Showed her that to be yourself is a gift not to be taken lightly by the bastards of this world and that hope is precious and not useless. Thats what I hope for......with her, for her and stuff the opinions of those who do not know how very hard that can be.
For me, I just pray for the strength to be the best I can, and for it to be enough.
Every damn day.....
and every damn day I find a reason, to stand tall and keep on keeping on
and I know that even if I can't see the way, the way see's me
How cool is that!
Have a good one people