Thursday, October 22, 2009

Gratitude with attitude.....

still going...


I keep being told I must be alone to grow into myself, to accept myself, to learn to love myself....just as I am.

Fair enough I guess. I agree in my heart of hearts....

Well, there are actually lots of things I love about myself, and also lots of things I'm not too fond of either.

The place I have gotten to with this is that hey, I have actually been ALONE here for the last 2 years, yeah? I have been spending the bulk of my time in a small airless box of an office with only the occasional adult to talk to. I use the term adult loosely......

I spend all of my time surrounded by people yes, I have teenage children who are constantly home due to the fact that we don't live near any of their friends, so no, Idon't get much time out from any of them, or from my mother and my brother. There is often family here and so that takes up my time too.....

I am actually kind of appreciating the shopping centre as it is my excuse to get away from them all. Not that I don't love them dearly, but ............

So yeah, I would LIKE for someone to come along and take me out sometimes.

To have a laugh with me, to go bloody fishing with me.....anything really, to get me out of my head and into the sunshine, moonlight, whichever applies.

Yes, I can do this myself but I don't, there is always something else to do...

I don't actually NEED the love of my damned life to come floating along right now, I wouldn't have the time or the damned energy for him anyway :)

I am grateful to know this about me.

I am grateful for my friends here in real life, who love me and let me know it.

I am grateful for my Kayla who makes me belly laugh and thinks I'm a total sap.....

I am grateful for little tiny kittens even if they are LOUD.......

I am also grateful for past relationships that have taught me lots, so I know what I know now and can maybe find some personal peace on this damn planet soon.

I am grateful for poetry.....

I am grateful for purple...

I am grateful for black candles even though I don't know why......

I am grateful for sunshine and moonbeams.

That is all.

:0)


8 comments:

linda said...

you know what? everything you listed is plenty....much love and black candles to you....I was wondering if they had a fragrance...black candles seem very sexy in a witchy kind of way :)

Cyndy said...

xoxoxoxoxxoxo

Lisa said...

smooch xx

Artistic Accents by Darla said...

Wonderful post Michelle! You're doing great I think!

Bagman and Butler said...

Bagman would love to go fishing with you. Or anywhere with you. Unfortunately he doesn't actually have a body and so is unable to bait a hook.

Bogey said...

It is nice to be grateful for the everyday things. It makes the extraordinary things that come our way that much more special. Waiting for that someone special to come into your life is like waiting for a butterly to land in the palm of your hand. Sometimes we just have to sit very still and wait for them to find us. In the meantime, there is always the sunshine and moonbeams.

Renee said...

I am grateful for you dear one.

I am doing the goddess Gnowee on Monday for my alphabet and wondered if I could use your painting Dreaming1 to represent her.

And it will say 'artwork Gnowee done by my very dear friend Michelle Pyke.

Love Renee xoxo

Let me know.

Daria said...

Loneliness can be so hard on a person. I hope you find someone to fill that void.