Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Well, who bloody knew !!!


Hmmm.........it isn't raining still :)

I thought I was stuck here with no internet this morning

I'm a bit surprised by how much that freaked me out!

I know I have become very reliant on this computer this past year or so, to keep me in touch with my friends, to keep me amused too I guess, in this not so amusing situation that I am living, to communicate with the human race.

Looking back on this past 2 years ( 2 f#@king YEARS!) I have actually been through rather a lot haven't I.......really

Just about everything on the major life stresses list I do believe, with the exception of having a deadly disease myself......(which I don't and won't you hear me universe!)

I have moved me and my house full of teenagers and dealt with the crap that accompanied that, I have been dealing with a dying parent, I have broken off a long term relationship, I have dealt with a child who was harming herself, I have sent a son overseas for a year, I have run a business I know nothing about after a life of never really having worked at all, I have left a life I was familiar with if nothing else and every single thing has changed.......

EVERY SINGLE THING!!!

I am a little lost right now but you know what....I will certainly not stay that way for long

I am a little lonely right now but I wont stay that way for long either!

I'm a little wired too........

A bit confused by some signals I may or may not have gotten crossed somewhere along the line......

Whatever, it will get sorted without any help or any more stress from me, that is certain.

I think I'm okay......

In fact, I know I am....

I just need to remember this at midnight when it's dark and lonely and stuff in my room......

In my new bed

Which comes in 2 days :)

I bought myself an ipod and a dock today.......that should keep me amused for 5 minutes

I can listen to great music all by myself in my brand new bed....snort!

hee heeeeeee


7 comments:

Lisa said...

all of the above are the reasons i love, trust and hero worship you so much.

in two years,you have grown so much as a woman, daughter, mother and friend.

i know you feel lonely- maybe that is the lesson of now- you were lonely before too, when you were in a relationship, remember ?

Gloria said...

Yes, you've been through a lot but no INTERNET . . yikes . . that would send me to the silly farm lol!!!!!

nollyposh said...

WoW girl! BE proud!!! That's amazing, makes a girl think that maybe she can ~Leap~ too! (i think!) Lol!

Snowbrush said...

Yes to getting through those midnights. And yes to freaking out when the Net is down. I was telling Peggy just today that we really should have two computers in case one of them fails.

Chrisy said...

A wish for you...you'll be in that new 'virgin' bed...with ipod playin...maybe some nice scented candles burning...snugglin down with a sigh and thinking...dam this is fine!

Barry said...

You are renewed.

Perhaps a celebration is in order? Burn off some of that stress and enjoy all you've accomplished.

Renee said...

Oh yeah right. Stress; life.

xoxox