Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Well, who bloody knew !!!
Hmmm.........it isn't raining still :)
I thought I was stuck here with no internet this morning
I'm a bit surprised by how much that freaked me out!
I know I have become very reliant on this computer this past year or so, to keep me in touch with my friends, to keep me amused too I guess, in this not so amusing situation that I am living, to communicate with the human race.
Looking back on this past 2 years ( 2 f#@king YEARS!) I have actually been through rather a lot haven't I.......really
Just about everything on the major life stresses list I do believe, with the exception of having a deadly disease myself......(which I don't and won't you hear me universe!)
I have moved me and my house full of teenagers and dealt with the crap that accompanied that, I have been dealing with a dying parent, I have broken off a long term relationship, I have dealt with a child who was harming herself, I have sent a son overseas for a year, I have run a business I know nothing about after a life of never really having worked at all, I have left a life I was familiar with if nothing else and every single thing has changed.......
EVERY SINGLE THING!!!
I am a little lost right now but you know what....I will certainly not stay that way for long
I am a little lonely right now but I wont stay that way for long either!
I'm a little wired too........
A bit confused by some signals I may or may not have gotten crossed somewhere along the line......
Whatever, it will get sorted without any help or any more stress from me, that is certain.
I think I'm okay......
In fact, I know I am....
I just need to remember this at midnight when it's dark and lonely and stuff in my room......
In my new bed
Which comes in 2 days :)
I bought myself an ipod and a dock today.......that should keep me amused for 5 minutes
I can listen to great music all by myself in my brand new bed....snort!