Thursday, December 03, 2009

Sad sad sad......damn it


I feel like I have been grieving today

I just feel so damn sad.....

I am sad because I love my brother and he is hiding behind his eyes from me......

I am sad because Renee is sick

I am sad because I didn't get to experience someone I wanted very much to

I am sad because my ex husband chooses to treat my children differently now that he has a son of his own, and even though I understand it, they don't....

I am sad because I saw my mother cry today while she was talking to the lovely doctor who lives across the road and she has nothing she believes in and this makes it all so much harder for her

I am sad because people seem to believe they need to be 'perfection' in order for god to love them and let them into 'heaven'.....this SO NOT TRUE

I am sad because she has a build up of cancer crap in her lymph nodes in her neck and this is not a good thing....

I am sad because I am bloody sad and I don't get to cry enough when things make me sad....

Today I am sitting with sad......

Tomorrow I will aim for happy.....

Tomorrow I am going to the beach, to coffee, to lunch, and to take photos of my beautiful child looking drop dead gorgeous in her own original way for the school formal tomorrow night......

Then I will go take care of me because somebody has to......and that makes me sad too


5 comments:

smiles4u said...

Lots to be sad about. It's good that you are feeling and not making yourself numb or stuffing your feelings. It's good that you take care of yourself...often times we forget to do that don't we? (((((Michelle)))))

Barry said...

For everything this is a time, and a time for sadness under Heaven.

Be sad if you are there.

Then be happy--or happier.

My thoughts are with your mother.

And you.

Daria said...

Too much sadness around these days.

Natalie said...

Big cuddle to you.xx♥

Renee said...

I am happy because I know you.

I am happy because in this lifetime I have gotten to be with you again.

Love Renee xoxoxo