I have been wondering what its going to be like
Life after the death of my mother
I have thus far avoided this conversation with myself because I just havn't wanted to think about it
I feel that I must make some sort of, internal at least. preperation here
I dont think she will see out this year......
Not without a miracle anyway
Who will 'do' Christmas afterwards?
Who will I run to, not that I have needed to do that for many years now, but still, what if I did?
Who will I be in the family infrastructure?
What will happen to my little brother?? As far as I'm concerned he will live with me until he feels he can manage on his own...but what will he want?? He is my main concern really. He is only 22 years old.....and now is not the time to ask him, but soon, maybe soon.
What will happen should this business not sell? For real?
I don't understand finances, never having had any money, what happens with the house, the business, all the' stuff'? I know what mum wants everyone to have, I know what debts need paying, but I don't know anything else and she hasn't been very forthcoming with getting this stuff sorted.
Who will I be?
What will I do next?
My MadKchild will be devastated, as will my sister.
How will I help them pick up their pieces?
Funerals? I will have to organise one.....