Forgiveness feels fine.....

Just when I thought I knew it all, along came you and showed me differently....

There are times, quite often, when I need my head pulling out of my butt

This is not one of them :)

You will just have to bear with me while I work through some stuff here.............

Writing from when I was away....

All I touch here is sadness

Walked a million miles with sand between my toes

I threw you to the wind

All those you’s

Each and every one of you

Who I have loved and left

When the disappointment of life got too much to bear

and you couldn’t carry me

and I didn’t want you to

I threw you all to the wind

But you, damn you

The wind just keeps blowing you back again

I watch the sea roil

And it matches my stomach now

I pick up shells and throw them away for not being perfect

Like I threw all of you,

like you have thrown me

Is that why I am walking here alone now?

I ache here

And I am full to the brim

I need to empty

And I don’t know how

Why don’t you come?

I write your name in the sand

Throwing you into the wind again

And ducking for cover this time

You, all you are is an idea, a concept, a wish....

Me, I gave you far too much power.....

all I touch here is sadness