Tuesday, November 03, 2009

On revisiting self.....


Well, I did all that ........

It was interesting going back to a meeting after so long
Was truly good to see a few familiar faces
Daunting, as always, to see the many new faces, worn and fragile souls hoping for a better way

Daunting and sad, so sad to see them and know that only the very few will do the very hard yards and still be sitting there in 8 years time, a whole new person......

So yeah, I got to gratitude real fast and I certainly remembered who I was and who I choose not to be anymore and why.....that 5 minutes of oblivion I was starting to yearn for looks a bit different this this morning :)

Now, all I need to do is accept who I am now......

I can do that, I like her a lot!

Full moon ritual was beautiful and appropriate for me, as happens when I let myself be guided instead of running my own show.........my cottage ladies are my allies and my sisters and I love them.

Lots.

You know people, I am still feeling lonely, still a little afraid, but not alone.

Never alone.



5 comments:

Lisa said...

like i always say- you are my hero- i am so glad about all aspects of your last night......well done brave girl- you are all you need to be

Linda S. Socha said...

Beautiful and real post. Thank you
Linda

Bogey said...

Not a bad reminder of all you could have lost over 5 minutes. I am happy for you. Keep getting to know 'you' and be good to yourself. It doesn't hurt to keep throwing in the odd reminder every once in awhile.

Renee said...

I like her a lot too.

Michelle, I burst out laughing at the heaven. har har

Love Renee xoxo

christopher said...

...not alone.

Never alone.

Yes, certainly, if I have anything to say about it. Solitude is not abandonment.