Monday, May 25, 2009

sigh


I seem to have been hit with a wave of melancholy this evening

I just feel so damn sad

My heart hurts

I guess it must be a mixture of things, including my mothers brave bald head.

When I got home tonight I found these on the table

They are from our garden, which grows itself

Beautiful girls

Thank you


16 comments:

Natalie said...

mmm

Natalie said...

Sending my love, it is all terribly sad.Have a good howl and release some of your pain, Michelle.It is understandable that you would be feeling this way.

Good girls for loving their mama.xx♥

Lisa said...

understandable
sadness is everywhere tonight xx

Sarah Lulu said...

I like the way you ended with gratitude ...

During the tough times I revert back to keeping it very simple ...

Doing the next right thing in the hour ...

AND prayer ...I'll do that for you.

Sometimes ....life can feel SOOO hard.

Hugs,

Jen said...

Hugs, hugs and more hugs.

xoxoxo

Audrey said...

Sending you love! My heart breaks for what you and your Mum are going through. Lovely flowers - lovely pickers of flowers!
Biggest hugs
xoxoxo

Daria said...

Cancer is difficult for everyone ... sometimes I think it is harder for the caregiver than the patient.

Wendy said...

Thinking of you ♥

linda said...

just here to say I hear you...don't keep it all in, release it, wail and wallow--it won't change anything but your brain, which might need a cleansing breath?
darling, the pressure you are under is enough to make most weep ... let it go for now ... and whenever you can ... one day the sun will shine again for you.

perhaps paint tho the place is a mess -- perhaps there is a path through the paint to ease your suffering... that is where I go, that and my pen and paper. right beside the bed I sometimes don't get out of for a few days...
xoxoxox

Bogey said...

I hope by the time you get this that you have had a good night's sleep and are feeling more grounded. I'm sure having your sister around for a few days was a welcome change of pace. You are probably missing her and feeling the pressure of everything else fall back on your shoulders. Take it easy. And a very loving touch from your girls!

Barry said...

What a touching gesture. What to do when there is nothing to do but show someone you love and support them.

I find it very moving.

Renee said...

Beautiful girls Michelle.

It is hard to see your Mom's head, I know.

When I am sad and if I cry lots and lots and never wipe the tears but just let them drip it is as if they burn comfort into my face.

I hope you allow yourself to cry.

Love Renee xoxoo

Renee said...

No silly goose you must blow your nose in between.

xooxo

nollyposh said...

(((HUGz))) xox

Chrisy said...

Sending love your way...

jewell said...

hugs darling let it out....

Better out than in as my old Gran would say