Monday, May 18, 2009

Tell me....

What do you do when....

  • your mothers hair is falling out and she is giving up hope and talking about not doing the chemo?
  • the Tracylady at the hospital is on a rostered day off when she has told you to ring her for blood results?
  • your ex comes to the office and your home without ringing first and then invades your space repeatedly and puts his hands on you in a too intimate way so you tell him that and he runs like a kicked f**cking cat leaving you angry and sad at having had to do that in the first place?
  • when you know the train is coming and you can't get off the track?

And such is my day

FRIK


17 comments:

Natalie said...

That sounds remarkably similar to mine, unfortunately.
Not the same people or circumstances obviously, but definitely the same result.
I hate it when you have to impose a boundary that you thought was understood. The bad taste it leaves is definitely one of anger,sadness and dare I say : degradation.
Sorry about your mum.x

Jen said...

Shit Chelle...

All of that is totally out of your control.

Acceptance I guess.

as for the Ex. Obviously it had to be said - It was incredibly insensitive to put you in that position in the first place.

Stand still so I can hug you!!!

p.s. I have the painting in my car - will drop it off tomorrow night :)

jewell said...

Love to you xxxx

Cyndy said...

*Your mum needs to talk to others in her situation. At least that way she can make an informed decision. I have a girlfriend that has a lovely wig that is no longer using: it's sitting on her dining room table & I'm sure that it would look better on a lovely lady's head.

*Grrr to ex... that is insufferable behaviour from someone who should have known better. Manipulative bastard.

*Roll to the middle of the tracks, 'Chell..... I saw it on youtube....

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Lisa said...

breathe angel
stand firm in your boundaries and also in honoring your mums wishes
breathe- its been one of those sorts of days

Sarah Lulu said...

Oh darling girl ...a tough day huh?

Sounds to me very much like you accepted (with sadness) what you can't change and did change what you could.

Can't do more than that ...leave the rest to God.

xxxx

Bogey said...

This is one of those moments when I really don't know what to say. Just reading this I can feel the stress. I agree with your friend Sarah Lulu...Let go and let God!

Put your anxiety onto a canvas. It would be interesting to see what comes of it. Cyber hugs to you.

Butler and Bagman said...

I have no idea what to do about those things...for me, I would probably go to an A.A. meeting, or go to bed and pull the pillow over my head. Blogging might help a little. Did it?

Daria said...

I know I felt better when I shaved my hair off instead of waiting for it to fall out ... that just gave me some power. I think we all question whether we are going to go back for more chemo ... but somehow we do get the courage to go back.

It's a tough road.

Evil Twin's Wife said...

I agree with the others. You dealt with the things you could control, you just have to accept the things you cannot (even if it means you're frustrated about it...). I've been in a similar situation and it's no fun.

Barry said...

Well the roles are a little mixed up and I don't have an Ex, but otherwise we could have been having the same day.

Is it Friday the 13th again?

linda said...

I hope for you a better day tomorrow, it almost couldn't get much worse but then again....

blessings...
X

Hippy Witch said...

I pray that the love and peace of Goddess rest upon your shoulder and fill your heart, I pray that her strength embraces you ,and her presence gives you the fortitude you need to live through each moment. I trust that all of this will flow through to your beautiful Mum. Blessings Chelle
You are thought of daily
Oh and as Cyndy said roll to the middle of the track and keep your beautiful head down

Strawberry Girl said...

Friend I don't know what I would do... may the blessings of your friends flow into your heart to give you strength to fight those bad days. I will be praying for you dearest.

*Hugs*

~Annie

Wendy said...

Sending you love and strength and hoping that you are feeling your burden lighten with the support of all of your blogger friends ♥

Kathleen said...

Love You xxxx

Renee said...

There is probably not a lot more that can be done.

How about shave your Mom's hair -- not to the bald but maybe to a 1/2 inch. I found it better than chemo head where I looked like I was in a bomb drop.

You should tell your ex to hit the road if he touches you again. He is not entitled to the best of both worlds. You can't even have th best in one world why should he have two.

Keep breathing you are going to get through it all.

Love Renee xoxo